On January the 13th
I’m releasing a very personal song. Ping Pong & Puzzle, Lily Amis feat.
Thir13een is a pop song about letting go of people and past.
When you are a kid
and playing with your cousins, you have no clue what the future will bring and
how family members fall out and become strangers!
War is one of the
most painful reasons why families separate and scattered. Relationships and
friendships end and the more time goes by the harder it is to reconnect. Even
though all my cousins from my mum’s side live in Germany, I haven’t seen them
for decades. I’ve tried many times to connect and organize a family reunion but
it failed every time because of the lack of interest from their side.
I never had a male
role model in my entire life. No father, no uncles, no cousins and no brother. The
ONLY man who I cherish in my heart was my wonderful grandfather. He was the ONLY
man who sincerely cared about us. I wish I had the chance to spend more years
with him than I did. All my memories are from my childhood and he was the best
grandfather one could wish for. I always thought his love and devotion would
connect me with my cousins. We may live in two different countries but we speak
the same language, share a border and have the same blood. We could visit each other within an hour
flight and only a few hours of train or car drive. But you can’t force love, no
matter how hard you try.
One would think today
with all the chatting APPS it is much easier to stay in contact and say hello
from time to time, but even modern communication failed and I gave up once and
for all. At least I don’t have to blame myself ever for not having tried everything
in my power to bring everyone together.
The word “family”
means nothing to me anymore. It is just a word. Family are those who care about
your wellbeing and don’t forget and ignore your before you’re even gone.
Stay tuned for my
liberating and uplifting song “Ping Pong & Puzzle” Lily Amis feat.
Thir13een, available on all streaming platforms. If you like the song, please don’t
forget to add it to your playlist and share it with everyone who has or is
suffering and fighting depression.